The feeling of weakness filled my mind, my insecurities plagued my soul, I spent my life trying to find purpose but was out of control.
I drove away family and friends and dug a huge pit, alone at the bottom is where I would sit.
Pile my problems and struggles of life on my shoulder, walking around pounding my chest like a soldier, but can barely walk with the weight of this boulder.
Many nights were spent weeping, so unloved and depressed, waking up in the morning struggling to get dressed.
Yelling at God, why are you doing this to me, I had no idea that God had a plan you see.
Hitting this rock I wasn’t able to go through, hitting my knees and prayed, God I give my life to you, I don’t know what else to do. If you are really out there hear my plea, I don’t want to live in this life without you leading me.
Take this lost and broken life and bless me with something better, I can’t take this anymore, I haven’t the strength to fight this worldly war. Give me the armor that’s needed to fight off the demons and lead me through all of the seasons.
Take this heavyweight that I’ve piled on me, PLEASE GOD I’M ALL YOURS SET ME FREE!
Since that day I’ve had a yoke that is so light, and not a bone in my body wants to physically fight. My problems seem smaller and now I stand taller. Finding peace in just saying His name, thinking now instead of pointing a finger to blame. Seeing farther now that I’m not blind and know that He is one of a kind. Thank you dear God for directing me where to go, being a light in the darkness with the love you bestow.