“For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world”. Have you ever fought a spiritual war that was never ending? This warfare can be over just about anything and sometimes take you away from your walk with God. I am personally going through this right now. You feel spiritually empty and drained over things that are going wrong in your life and that there’s no way to fight it. No matter how hard that you pray, problems keep arising. We can get so angry with God that we yell at him or wonder what we had done wrong that God would punish us so. My current and ongoing problem is my body failing. I have always been a physical person. Wrestler, boxer, rugby, soccer, baseball, softball, powerlifter, body builder and swimmer. My body is paying the toll for my participation in these activities. My knees hurt so bad that it hurts to bend down to hug our daughter when she goes to school. My back is failing when I pick up items at work or home. The pain in the morning when I first wake up makes me want to throw up. I force my legs to work just to make it to the coffee pot and walk around trying to ignore it. Both my shoulders have had nasty tears in almost all the tendons and a nice bone spur was added. Being physical was always my go- to when helping others. I could pick up a refrigerator and place it into the back of a pickup and now I cannot pick myself up out of bed at times. To top it all off I’m unable to walk very far which I need to lose weight. I am almost 60 lbs overweight. This morning after my family left to go about their day I locked myself in our mud room. I cried so hard and yelled at God asking Him why I’m going through this. I know that there is a season for everything and all must endure but I still question why. Ecclesiastes 3:1-11 explains it all. There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a Time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a Time For Peace. I believe that God is going to build my body into something different. A time to be physically strong, a time to become weak. This is a hard tackle for me but I need to keep my faith and strength in God. I need to be humble and realize that I may no longer be super strong. God is going to make me so much stronger in a different way, I just need to trust in Him through the storm.
Published by Matthew, Karen, and God
Karen Guthrie, a retired Bank Manager, Vice President, and Matthew Moore, who works in construction, are members of the same church. In March 2014, they both joined the Oakdale Rescue Mission Board of Directors. They started sharing their stories with one another on how God has greatly impacted their lives. View more posts