I was talking with Karen this morning and she was asking why I haven’t been writing about something that’s going on in my life at this moment. The fact is I’ve been so focused on my problem that I haven’t even thought about writing. I am 41 years old and have been having physical problems the last year-and-a-half. Lately they figured out that something was wrong with my heart. So I had to go in and have an angiogram done plus a stent put in. I never thought that I would be having heart problems at such a young age. Everything was fine and good when I first got to the hospital and even through the procedure. When I got out of the procedure room however that was a different story. They weren’t going to keep me overnight it was an in and out process. Even though I knew I was going home that evening I was filled with anger and depression. I think a lot of it had to do with the sedative that they give you during your procedure. I felt so weak and helpless and I don’t like that feeling, who does right? The anger was getting to me so much so I thought I was going to walk out of that hospital on multiple occasions. Luckily God had placed my wife next to me during this ordeal. Even though I was not very nice to her she was very relaxed and calm. I felt so bad about the way that I treated her. And even the next couple of days after the procedure I was not being very nice. All my life I have ran off of my physical strength. I’m not one to sit at home and do nothing because I feel worthless, so for me to be laid up in bed either at hospital or at home felt like nonsense. I made multiple phone calls this morning to help me get rid of the anger because no matter how much I prayed it seemed as though it wouldn’t subside. Of course I didn’t know until today that that is what my problem was. God had already answered my prayers by putting great friends in my life to help guide me and talk me through things. Praise God for answered prayers with friends and family who have patience and understanding. Praise God that we can come to him in our time of need.
Published by Matthew, Karen, and God
Karen Guthrie, a retired Bank Manager, Vice President, and Matthew Moore, who works in construction, are members of the same church. In March 2014, they both joined the Oakdale Rescue Mission Board of Directors. They started sharing their stories with one another on how God has greatly impacted their lives. View more posts