Worst fear

We’ve all been asked at one point in time in our life, “What is your worst fear?” Some of us say drowning others May say being in a car crash, or even burning to death. All of these are valid and can be very fearsome in my answer was one of those. I have been sick for going on 2 years now and the doctors haven’t been able to figure out what’s going on with me. Slowly but surely I started losing my memory. One day I was in a parking lot I couldn’t find my car in some would say that’s not awful that’s happened to me before. For me however I couldn’t remember which car I drove or where I parked or who I came with. Fear had set in of being lost. I couldn’t even remember my wife’s name after I figured out who I came with or where she was. Luckily I had the bags of the store that we just came out of in my hand so I was able to head that direction until my wife and child found me. Slowly but surely I started forgetting regular things small things but then they started magnifying as the months had passed. I had even forgotten my own birthday and my address to where I lived, but that’s not what really got to me. One day I completely forgot my daughter’s birth date I thought I had it in my mind and I said it out loud but I knew it wasn’t right. My worst fear has changed! My worst fear at this very moment is forgetting who my loved ones are. It saddens me to think that one day I could wake up and not remember anything. The look on my daughter’s face of being forgotten by her own father. I’m trying to keep my focus on God right now because I know that he will never forget me and what my family and I going through. I trust that God has a plan for me and my family and that we will be taking care of. Psalms 34:4 says I sought the Lord and he answered me, he delivered me from all my fears. Psalms 23:4 “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me.” We think there are a lot of things to be fearful of in this world. But so long as we are walking strong in our faith with God we have nothing to fear. Things will make us sad things will touch our heart and horrible things may happen but God is always there to be our leader our protector our shield and our comforter.

Published by Matthew, Karen, and God

Karen Guthrie, a retired Bank Manager, Vice President, and Matthew Moore, who works in construction, are members of the same church. In March 2014, they both joined the Oakdale Rescue Mission Board of Directors. They started sharing their stories with one another on how God has greatly impacted their lives.

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